To Peter and Peggy McLeod
Come away, come away, death,And in sad cypress let me be laid;Fly away, fly away, breath;I am slain by a fair cruel maid.My shroud of white, stuck all with yew,O prepare it!My part of death, no one so trueDid share it.
(Shakespeare)
Prologue
"Elinor Katharine Carlisle. You stand charged upon this indictment with the murder of Mary Gerrard upon the 27th of July last. Are you guilty or not guilty?"Elinor Carlisle stood very straight, her head raised. It was a graceful head, the modeling of the bones sharp and well defined. The eyes were a deep vivid blue, the hair black. The brows had been plucked to a faint thin line.There was a silence - quite a noticeable silence.Sir Edwin Bulmer, Counsel for the Defense, felt a thrill of dismay. He thought, My God, she's going to plead guilty. She's lost her nerve.Elinor Carlisle's lips parted. She said, "Not guilty."Counsel for the Defense sank back. He passed a handkerchief over his brow, realizing that it had been a near shave.Sir Samuel Attenbury was on his feet, outlining the case for the Crown."May it please your lordship, gentlemen of the jury, on the 27th of July, at half-past three in the afternoon, Mary Gerrard died at Hunterbury, Maidensford..."His voice ran on, sonorous and pleasing to the ear. It lulled Elinor almost into unconsciousness. From the simple and concise narrative only an occasional phrase seeped through to her conscious mind."... case a peculiarly simple and straightforward one... It is the duty of the Crown... prove motive and opportunity... No one, as far as can be seen, had any motive to kill this unfortunate girl, Mary Gerrard, except the accused. A young girl of a charming disposition - liked by everybody - without, one would have said, an enemy in the world..."Mary, Mary Gerrard! How far away it all seemed now. Not real any longer..."... Your attention will be particularly directed to the following considerations: 1. What opportunities and means had the accused for administering poison? 2. What motive had she for so doing?"It will be my duty to call before you witnesses who can help you to form a true conclusion on these matters..."... As regards the poisoning of Mary Gerrard, I shall endeavor to show you that no one had any opportunity to commit this crime except the accused..."Elinor felt as though imprisoned in a thick mist. Detached words came drifting through the fog."... Sandwiches... Fish paste... Empty house..."The words stabbed through the thick enveloping blanket of Elinor's thoughts - pin-pricks through a heavy muffling veil...
The court. Faces. Rows and rows of faces! One particular face with a big black mustache and shrewd eyes. Hercule Poirot, his head a little on one side, his eyes thoughtful, was watching her.She thought, 'He's trying to see just exactly why I did it. He's trying to get inside my head to see what I thought - what I felt...'Felt? A little blur - a slight sick sense of shock... Roddy's face - his dear, dear face with its long nose, its sensitive mouth... Roddy! Always Roddy - always, ever since she could remember - since those days at Hunterbury among the raspberries and up in the warren and down by the brook. Roddy - Roddy - Roddy...Other faces! Nurse O'Brien, her mouth slightly open, her freckled, fresh face thrust forward. Nurse Hopkins looking smug - smug and implacable. Peter Lord's face - Peter Lord - so kind, so sensible, so - so comforting! But looking now - what was it - lost? Yes - lost! Minding - minding all this frightfully! While she herself, star performer, didn't mind at all!Here she was, quite calm and cold, standing in the dock, accused of murder. She was in court.Something stirred; the folds of blanket round her brain lightened - became mere wraiths. In court! - People...People leaning forward, their lips parted a little, their eyes agog, staring at her, Elinor, with a horrible ghoulish enjoyment - listening with a kind of slow, cruel relish to what that tall man was saying about her."The facts in this case are extremely easy to follow and are not in dispute. I shall put them before you quite simply. From the very beginning..."Elinor thought, The beginning... The beginning? The day that horrible anonymous letter came! that was the beginning of it...
Chapter 1
An anonymous letter! Elinor Carlisle stood looking down at it as it lay open in her hand. She'd never had such a thing before. It gave one an unpleasant sensation. Ill-written, badly spelled, on cheap pink paper.
This is to Warn You,
I'm naming no Names but there's Someone sucking up to your Aunt and if you're not kareful you'll get Cut Out of Everything. Girls Are very Artful and Old Ladies is Soft when Young Ones suck up to Them and Flatter them What I say is You'd best come down and see for Yourself whats Going On its not right you and the Young Gentleman should be Done Out of What's yours - and She's Very Artful and the Old Lady might Pop off at any time.
Well-Wisher.
Elinor was still staring at this missive, her plucked brows drawn together in distaste, when the door opened. The maid announced, "Mr Welman," and Roddy came in.Roddy! As always when she saw Roddy, Elinor was conscious of a slightly giddy feeling, a throb of sudden pleasure, a feeling that it was incumbent upon her to be very matter-of-fact and unemotional. Because it was so very obvious that Roddy, although he loved her, didn't feel about her the way she felt about him. The first sight of him did something to her, twisted her heart round so that it almost hurt. Absurd that a man - an ordinary, yes, a perfectly ordinary young man - should be able to do that to one! That the mere look of him should set the world spinning, that his voice should make you want - just a little - to cry. Love surely should be a pleasurable emotion - not something that hurt you by its intensity.One thing was clear: one must be very, very careful to be off-hand and casual about it all. Men didn't like devotion and adoration. Certainly Roddy didn't.She said lightly, "Hallo, Roddy!"Roddy said, "Hallo, darling. You're looking very tragic. Is it a bill?"Elinor shook her head.Roddy said, "I thought it might be - midsummer, you know - when the fairies dance, and the accounts rendered come tripping along!"Elinor said, "It's rather horrid. It's an anonymous letter."Roddy's brows went up. His keen, fastidious face stiffened and changed. He said - a sharp, disgusted exclamation, "No!"Elinor said again, "It's rather horrid..."She moved a step toward her desk."I'd better tear it up, I suppose."She could have done that - she almost did - for Roddy and anonymous letters were two things that ought not to come together. She might have thrown it away and thought no more about it. He would not have stopped her. His fastidiousness was far more strongly developed than his curiosity.But on an impulse Elinor decided differently. She said, "Perhaps, though, you'd better read it first. Then we'll burn it. It's about Aunt Laura."Roddy's eyebrows rose in surprise. "Aunt Laura?"He took the letter, read it, gave a frown of distaste, and handed it back. "Yes," he said. "Definitely to be burned! How extraordinary people are!" Elinor said, "One of the servants, do you think?""I suppose so." He hesitated. "I wonder who - who the person is - the one they mention?"Elinor said thoughtfully, "It must be Mary Gerrard, I think."Roddy frowned in an effort of remembrance."Mary Gerrard? Who is she?""The daughter of the people at the lodge. You must remember her as a child? Aunt Laura was always fond of the girl, and took an interest in her. She paid for her schooling and for various extras - piano lessons and French and things."Roddy said, "Oh, yes, I remember her now; scrawny kid, all legs and arms, with a lot of messy fair hair."Elinor nodded. "Yes, you probably haven't seen her since those summer holidays when Mum and Dad were abroad. You've not been down at Hunterbury as often as I have, of course, and she's been abroad au pair in Germany lately, but we used to rout her out and play with her when we were all kids.""What's she like now?" asked Roddy.Elinor said, "She's turned out very nice-looking. Good manners and all that. As a result of her education, you'd never take her for old Gerrard's daughter.""Gone all lady-like, has she?""Yes. I think, as a result of that, she doesn't get on very well at the lodge. Mrs Gerrard died some years ago, you know, and Mary and her father don't get on. He jeers at her schooling and her 'fine ways.'"Roddy said irritably, "People never dream what harm they may do by 'educating' someone! Often it's cruelty, not kindness!"Elinor said, "I suppose she is up at the house a good deal. She reads aloud to Aunt Laura, I know, since she had her stroke."Roddy said, "Why can't the nurse read to her?"Elinor said with a smile, "Nurse O'Brien's got a brogue you can cut with a knife! I don't wonder Aunt Laura prefers Mary." Roddy walked rapidly and nervously up and down the room for a minute or two. Then he said, "You know, Elinor, I believe we ought to go down."Elinor said with a slight recoil, "Because of this - ?""No, no - not at all. Oh, damn it all, one must be honest, yes! Foul as that communication is, there may be some truth behind it. I mean, the old girl is pretty ill -""Yes, Roddy."He looked at her with his charming smile - admitting the fallibility of human nature. He said, "And the money does matter - to you and me, Elinor."She admitted it quickly: "Oh, it does."He said seriously, "It's not that I'm mercenary. But, after all, Aunt Laura herself has said over and over again that you and I are her only family ties. You're her own niece, her brother's child, and I'm her husband's nephew. She's always given us to understand that at her death all she's got would come to one or the other - or more probably both - of us. And - it's a pretty large sum, Elinor.""Yes," said Elinor thoughtfully. "It must be.""It's no joke keeping up Hunterbury." He paused. "Uncle Henry was what you'd call, I suppose, comfortably off when he met your Aunt Laura. But she was an heiress. She and your father were both left very wealthy. Pity your father speculated and lost most of his."Elinor sighed. "Poor father never had much business sense. He got very worried over things before he died.""Yes, your Aunt Laura had a much better head than he had. She married Uncle Henry and they bought Hunterbury, and she told me the other day that she'd been exceedingly lucky always in her investments. Practically nothing had slumped.""Uncle Henry left all he had to her when he died, didn't he?"Roddy nodded. "Yes, tragic his dying so soon. And she's never married again. Faithful old bean. And she's always been very good to us. She's treated me as if I were her nephew by blood. If I've been in a hole she's helped me out; luckily I haven't done that too often!""She's been awfully generous to me, too," said Elinor gratefully.Roddy nodded. "Aunt Laura," he said, "is a brick. But, you know, Elinor, perhaps without meaning to do so, you and I live pretty extravagantly, considering what our means really are!"She said ruefully, "I suppose, we do. Everything costs so much - clothes and one's face - and just silly things like movies and cocktails - and even gramophone records!"Roddy said, "Darling, you are one of the lilies of the field, aren't you? You toil not, neither do you spin!"Elinor said, "Do you think I ought to, Roddy?"He shook his head. "I like you as you are: delicate and aloof and ironical. I'd hate you to go all earnest. I'm only saying that if it weren't for Aunt Laura you probably would be working at some grim job."He went on: "The same with me. I've got a job, of sorts. Being with Lewis & Hume is not too arduous. It suits me. I preserve my self-respect by having a job; but - mark this - I don't worry about the future because of my expectations - from Aunt Laura."Elinor said, "We sound rather like human leeches!""Nonsense! We've been given to understand that some day we shall have money - that's all. Naturally that fact influences our conduct."Elinor said thoughtfully, "Aunt Laura has never told us definitely just how she has left her money?"Roddy said, "That doesn't matter! In all probability she's divided it between us; but if that isn't so - if she's left all of it or most of it to you as her own flesh and blood - why, then, darling, I shall still share in it, because I'm going to marry you - and if the old pet thinks the majority should go to me as the male representative of the Welmans, that's still all right, because you're marrying me."He grinned at her affectionately. He said, "Lucky we happen to love each other. You do love me, don't you, Elinor?""Yes." She said it coldly, almost primly."Yes!" Roddy mimicked her. "You're adorable, Elinor. That little air of yours - aloof - untouchable - la Princesse Lointaine. It's that quality of yours that made me love you, I believe."Elinor caught her breath. She said, "Is it?""Yes." He frowned. "Some women are so - oh, I don't know - so damned possessive - so - so dog-like and devoted - their emotions slopping all over the place! I'd hate that. With you I never know - I'm never sure - any minute you might turn around in that cool, detached way of yours and say you'd changed your mind - quite coolly, like that - without batting an eyelash! You're a fascinating creature, Elinor. You're like a work of art, so - so finished!"He went on: "You know, I think ours will be the perfect marriage. We both love each other enough and not too much. We're good friends. We've got a lot of tastes in common. We know each other through and through. We've all the advantages of cousinship without the disadvantages of blood relationship. I shall never get tired of you, because you're such an elusive creature. you may get tired of me, though, I'm such an ordinary sort of chap -"Elinor shook her head. She said, "I shan't get tired of you, Roddy - ever.""My sweet!"He kissed her.He said, "Aunt Laura has a pretty shrewd idea of how it is with us, I think, although we haven't been down since we finally fixed it up. It rather gives us an excuse, doesn't it, for going down?""Yes. I was thinking the other day -"Roddy finished the sentence for her: "- that we hadn't been down as often as we might. I thought that, too. When she first had her stroke we went down almost every other weekend. And now it must be almost two months since we were there." Elinor said, "We'd have gone if she'd asked for us - at once.""Yes, of course. And we know that she likes Nurse O'Brien and is well looked after. All the same, perhaps, we have been a bit slack. I'm talking now not from the money point of view - but the sheer human one."Elinor nodded. "I know.""So that filthy letter has done some good, after all! We'll go down to protect our interests and because we're fond of the old dear!"He lit a match and set fire to the letter which he took from Elinor's hand."Wonder who wrote it?" he said. "Not that it matters... Someone who was 'on our side,' as we used to say when we were kids. Perhaps they've done us a good turn, too. Jim Partington's mother went out to the Riviera to live, had a handsome young Italian doctor to attend her, became quite crazy about him and left him every penny she had. Jim and his sisters tried to upset the will, but couldn't."Elinor said, "Aunt Laura likes the new doctor who's taken over Dr Ransome's practice - but not to that extent! Anyway, that horrid letter mentioned a girl. It must be Mary."Roddy said, "We'll go down and see for ourselves."
Nurse O'Brien rustled out of Mrs Welman's bedroom and into the bathroom. She said over her shoulder, "I'll just pop the kettle on. You could do with a cup of tea before you go on, I'm sure, Nurse."Nurse Hopkins said comfortably, "Well, dear, I can always do with a cup of tea. I always say there's nothing like a nice cup of tea - a strong cup!"Nurse O'Brien said as she filled the kettle and lit the gas-ring, "I've got everything here in this cupboard - teapot and cups and sugar - and Edna brings me up fresh milk twice a day. No need to be forever ringing bells. 'Tis a fine gas-ring, this; boils a kettle in a flash."Nurse O'Brien was a tall red-haired woman of thirty with flashing white teeth, a freckled face and an engaging smile. Her cheerfulness and vitality made her a favorite with her patients. Nurse Hopkins, the District Nurse who came every morning to assist with the bed-making and toilet of the heavy old lady, was a homely-looking middle-aged woman with a capable air and a brisk manner.She said now approvingly, "Everything's very well done in this house."The other nodded. "Yes, old-fashioned, some of it, no central heating, but plenty of fires and all the maids are very obliging girls and Mrs Bishop looks after them well."Nurse Hopkins said, "These girls nowadays - I've no patience with 'em - don't know what they want, most of them - and can't do a decent day's work.""Mary Gerrard's a nice girl," said Nurse O'Brien. "I really don't know what Mrs Welman would do without her. You saw how she asked for her now? Ah, well, she's a lovely creature, I will say, and she's got a way with her."Nurse Hopkins said, "I'm sorry for Mary. That old father of hers does his best to spite the girl.""Not a civil word in his head, the old curmudgeon," said Nurse O'Brien. "There, the kettle's singing. I'll wet the tea as soon as it comes to the boil."The tea was made and poured, hot and strong. The two nurses sat with it in Nurse O'Brien's room next door to Mrs Welman's bedroom."Mr Welman and Miss Carlisle are coming down," said Nurse O'Brien. "There was a telegram came this morning.""There, now, dear," said Nurse Hopkins. "I thought the old lady was looking excited about something. It's some time since they've been down, isn't it?""It must be two months and over. Such a nice young gentleman, Mr Welman. But very proud-looking."Nurse Hopkins said, "I saw her picture in the Tatler the other day - with a friend at Newmarket."Nurse O'Brien said, "She's very well known in society, isn't she? And always has such lovely clothes. Do you think she's really good-looking, Nurse?"Nurse Hopkins said, "Difficult to tell what these girls really look like under their make-up! In my opinion, she hasn't got anything like the looks Mary Gerrard has!"Nurse O'Brien pursed her lips and put her head on one side. "You may be right now. But Mary hasn't got the style!"Nurse Hopkins said sententiously, "Fine feathers make fine birds.""Another cup of tea, Nurse?""Thank you, Nurse. I don't mind if I do."Over their steaming cups the women drew a little closer together. Nurse O'Brien said, "An odd thing happened last night. I went in at two o'clock to settle my dear comfortably, as I always do, and she was lying there awake. But she must have been dreaming, for as soon as I got into the room she said, 'The photograph. I must have the photograph.'"So I said, 'Why, of course, Mrs Welman. But wouldn't you rather wait till morning?' And she said, 'No. I want to look at it now.' So I said, 'Well, where is this photograph? Is it the one of Mr Roderick you're meaning?' And she said, 'Roderick? No. Lewis.' And she began to struggle, and I went to lift her and she got out her keys from the little box beside her bed and told me to unlock the second drawer of the tallboy, and there, sure enough, was a big photograph in a silver frame. Such a handsome man. And 'Lewis' written across the corner. Old-fashioned, of course, must have been taken years ago. I took it to her and she held it there, staring at it a long time. And she just murmured, 'Lewis - Lewis.' Then she sighed and gave it to me and told me to put it back. And, would you believe it, when I turned round again she'd gone off as sweetly as a child."Nurse Hopkins said, "Was it her husband, do you think?"Nurse O'Brien said, "It was not! For this morning I asked Mrs Bishop, careless-like, what was the late Mr Welman's first name, and it was Henry, she told me!"The two women exchanged glances. Nurse Hopkins had a long nose, and the end of it quivered a little with pleasurable emotion. She said thoughtfully, "Lewis - Lewis. I wonder, now. I don't recall the name anywhere round these parts.""It would be many years ago, dear," the other reminded her."Yes, and, of course, I've only been here a couple of years. I wonder, now -"Nurse O'Brien said, "A very handsome man. Looked as though he might be a cavalry officer!"Nurse Hopkins sipped her tea. She said, "That's very interesting."Nurse O'Brien said romantically, "Maybe they were boy and girl together and a cruel father separated them."Nurse Hopkins said with a deep sigh, "Perhaps he was killed in the war."
When Nurse Hopkins, pleasantly stimulated by tea and romantic speculation, finally left the house, Mary Gerrard ran out of the door to overtake her."Oh, Nurse, may I walk down to the village with you?""Of course you can, Mary, my dear."Mary Gerrard said breathlessly, "I must talk to you. I'm so worried about everything."The older woman looked at her kindly.At twenty-one Mary Gerrard was a lovely creature with a kind of wild-rose unreality about her; a long delicate neck, pale golden hair lying close to her exquisitely shaped head in soft natural waves, and eyes of a deep, vivid blue.Nurse Hopkins said, "What's the trouble?""The trouble is that the time is going on and on and I'm not doing anything!"Nurse Hopkins said dryly, "Time enough for that.""No, but it is so - so unsettling. Mrs Welman has been wonderfully kind, giving me all that expensive schooling. I do feel now that I ought to be starting to earn my own living. I ought to be training for something."Nurse Hopkins nodded sympathetically."It's such a waste of everything if I don't. I've tried to - to - explain what I feel to Mrs Welman, but - it's difficult - she doesn't seem to understand. She keeps saying there's plenty of time."Nurse Hopkins said, "She's a sick woman, remember."Mary flushed, a contrite flush. "Oh, I know. I suppose I oughtn't to bother her. But it is worrying - and Father's so - so beastly about it! Keeps jibing me for being a fine lady! But indeed I don't want to sit about doing nothing!""I know you don't.""The trouble is that training of any kind is nearly always expensive. I know German pretty well now, and I might do something with that. But I think really I want to be a hospital nurse. I do like nursing and sick people."Nurse Hopkins said unromantically, "You've got to be as strong as a horse, remember!""I am strong! And I really do like nursing. Mother's sister, the one in New Zealand, was a nurse. So it's in my blood, you see.""What about massage?" suggested Nurse Hopkins. "Or Norland? You're fond of children. There's good money to be made in massage."Mary said doubtfully, "It's expensive to train for it, isn't it? I hoped - but of course that's very greedy of me - she's done so much for me already.""Mrs Welman, you mean? Nonsense. In my opinion, she owes you that. She's given you a slap-up education, but not the kind that leads to anything much. You don't want to teach?""I'm not clever enough."Nurse Hopkins said, "There's brains and brains! If you take my advice, Mary, you'll be patient for the present. In my opinion, as I said, Mrs Welman owes it to you to help you get a start at making your living. And I've no doubt she means to do it. But the truth of the matter is, she's got fond of you, and she doesn't want to lose you."Mary said, "Oh!" She drew in her breath with a little gasp. "Do you really think that's it?""I haven't the least doubt of it! There she is, poor old lady, more or less helpless, paralyzed one side and nothing and nobody much to amuse her. It means a lot to her to have a fresh, pretty young thing like you about the house. You've a very nice way with you in a sickroom."Mary said softly, "If you really think so - that makes me feel better... Dear Mrs Welman, I'm very, very fond of her! She's been so good to me always. I'd do anything for her!"Nurse Hopkins said dryly, "Then the best thing you can do is to stay where you are and stop worrying! It won't be for long."Mary said, "Do you mean - ?"Her eyes looked wide and frightened.The District Nurse nodded. "She's rallied wonderfully, but it won't be for long. There will be a second stroke and then a third. I know the way of it only too well. You be patient, my dear. If you keep the old lady's last days happy and occupied, that's a better deed than many. The time for the other will come."Mary said, "You're very kind."Nurse Hopkins said, "Here's your father coming out from the lodge - and not to pass the time of day pleasantly, I should say!"They were just nearing the big iron gates. On the steps of the lodge an elderly man with a bent back was painfully hobbling down the two steps.Nurse Hopkins said cheerfully, "Good morning, Mr Gerrard."Ephraim Gerrard said crustily, "Ah!""Very nice weather," said Nurse Hopkins.Old Gerrard said crossly, "May be for you. 'Tisn't for me. My lumbago's been at me something cruel."Nurse Hopkins said cheerfully, "That was the wet spell last week, I expect. This hot dry weather will soon clear that away."Her brisk professional manner appeared to annoy the old man.He said disagreeably, "Nurses - nurses, you're all the same. Full of cheerfulness over other people's troubles. Little you care! And there's Mary talks about being a nurse, too. Should have thought she'd want to be something better than that, with her French and her German and her piano-playing and all the things she's learned at her grand school and her travels abroad."Mary said sharply, "Being a hospital nurse would be quite good enough for me!""Yes, and you'd sooner do nothing at all, wouldn't you? Strutting about with your airs and your graces and your fine-lady-do-nothing ways. Laziness, that's what you like, my girl!"Mary protested, tears springing to her eyes, "It isn't true, Dad. You've no right to say that!"Nurse Hopkins intervened with a heavy, determinedly humorous air."Just a bit under the weather, aren't we, this morning? You don't really mean what you say, Gerrard. Mary's a good girl and a good daughter to you."Gerrard looked at his daughter with an air of almost active malevolence. "She's no daughter of mine - nowadays - with her French and her history and her mincing talk. Pah!"He turned and went into the lodge again.Mary said, the tears still standing in her eyes, "You do see, Nurse, don't you, how difficult it is? He's so unreasonable. He's never really liked me even when I was a little girl. Mum was always standing up for me."Nurse Hopkins said kindly, "There, there, don't worry. These things are sent to try us! Goodness, I must hurry. Such a round as I've got this morning."And as she stood watching the brisk retreating figure, Mary Gerrard thought forlornly that nobody was any real good or could really help you. Nurse Hopkins, for all her kindness, was quite content to bring out a little stock of platitudes and offer them with an air of novelty.Mary thought disconsolately, "What shall I do?"
Chapter 2
Mrs Welman lay on her carefully built-up pillows. Her breathing was a little heavy, but she was not asleep. Her eyes - eyes still deep and blue like those of her niece Elinor, looked up at the ceiling. She was a big, heavy woman, with a handsome, hawk-like profile. Pride and determination showed in her face.The eyes dropped and came to rest on the figure sitting by the window. They rested there tenderly - almost wistfully.She said at last, "Mary -"The girl turned quickly. "Oh, you're awake, Mrs Welman."Laura Welman said, "Yes, I've been awake some time.""Oh, I didn't know. I'd have -"Mrs Welman broke in, "No, that's all right. I was thinking - thinking of many things.""Yes, Mrs Welman?"The sympathetic look, the interested voice, made a tender look come into the older woman's face. She said gently, "I'm very fond of you, my dear. You're very good to me.""Oh, Mrs Welman, it's you who have been good to me. If it hadn't been for you, I don't know what I should have done! You've done everything for me.""I don't know - I don't know, I'm sure." The sick woman moved restlessly, her right arm twitched - the left remaining inert and lifeless. "One means to do the best one can, but it's so difficult to know what is best - what is right. I've been too sure of myself always."Mary Gerrard said, "Oh, no, I'm sure you always know what is best and right to do."But Laura Welman shook her head. "No - no. It worries me. I've had one besetting sin always, Mary: I'm proud. Pride can be the devil. It runs in our family. Elinor has it, too."Mary said quickly, "It will be nice for you to have Miss Elinor and Mr Roderick down. It will cheer you up a lot. It's quite a time since they were here."Mrs Welman said softly, "They're good children - very good children. And fond of me, both of them. I always know I've only got to send and they'll come at any time. But I don't want to do that too often. They're young and happy - the world in front of them. No need to bring them near decay and suffering before their time."Mary said, "I'm sure they'd never feel like that, Mrs Welman."Mrs Welman went on, talking perhaps more to herself than to the girl: "I always hoped they might marry. But I tried never to suggest anything of the kind. Young people are so contradictory. It would have put them off! I had an idea, long ago, when they were children, that Elinor had set her heart on Roddy. But I wasn't at all sure about him. He's a funny creature. Henry was like that - very reserved and fastidious... Yes, Henry..."She was silent for a little, thinking of her dead husband. She murmured, "So long ago - so very long ago... We had only been married five years when he died. Double pneumonia... We were happy - yes, very happy; but somehow it all seems very unreal, that happiness. I was an odd, solemn, undeveloped girl - my head full of ideals and hero-worship. No reality."Mary murmured, "You must have been very lonely - afterward.""After? Oh, yes - terribly lonely. I was twenty-six - and now I'm over sixty. A long time, my dear - a long, long time."She said with sudden brisk acerbity, "And now this!""Your illness?""Yes. A stroke is the thing I've always dreaded. The indignity of it all! Washed and tended like a baby! Helpless to do anything for myself. It maddens me. The O'Brien creature is good-natured - I will say that for her. She doesn't mind my snapping at her and she's not more idiotic than most of them. But it makes a lot of difference to me to have you about, Mary.""Does it?" The girl flushed. "I - I'm so glad, Mrs Welman."Laura Welman said shrewdly, "You've been worrying, haven't you? About the future. You leave it to me, my dear. I'll see to it that you shall have the means to be independent and take up a profession. But be patient for a little - it means too much to me to have you here.""Oh, Mrs Welman, of course - of course! I wouldn't leave you for the world. Not if you want me -""I do want you." The voice was unusually deep and full. "You're - you're quite like a daughter to me, Mary. I've seen you grow up here at Hunterbury from a little toddling thing - have seen you grow into a beautiful girl. I'm proud of you, child. I only hope I've done what was best for you."Mary said quickly, "If you mean that your having been so good to me and having educated me above - well, above my station - if you think it's made me dissatisfied or - or - given me what Father calls fine-lady ideas, indeed that isn't true. I'm just ever so grateful, that's all. And if I'm anxious to start earning my living, it's only because I feel it's right that I should, and not - and not - well, do nothing after all you've done for me. I - I shouldn't like it to be thought that I was sponging on you."Laura Welman said, and her voice was suddenly sharpedged, "So that's what Gerrard's been putting into your head? Pay no attention to your father, Mary; there never has been and never will be any question of your sponging on me! I'm asking you to stay here a little longer solely on my account. Soon it will be over... If they went the proper way about things, my life could be ended here and now - none of this long-drawn-out tomfoolery with nurses and doctors.""Oh, no, Mrs Welman, Dr Lord says you may live for years.""I'm not at all anxious to, thank you! I told him the other day that in a decently civilized state all there would be to do would be for me to intimate to him that I wished to end it, and he'd finish me off painlessly with some nice drug. 'And if you'd any courage, Doctor,' I said, 'you'd do it anyway!'"Mary cried, "Oh! What did he say?""The disrespectful young man merely grinned at me, my dear, and said he wasn't going to risk being hanged. He said, 'If you'd left me all your money, Mrs Welman, that would be different, of course!' Impudent young jackanapes! But I like him. His visits do me more good than his medicines.""Yes, he's very nice," said Mary. "Nurse O'Brien thinks a lot of him and so does Nurse Hopkins."Mrs Welman said, "Hopkins ought to have more sense at her age. As for O'Brien, she simpers and says, 'Oh, Doctor,' and tosses those long streamers of hers whenever he comes near her.""Poor Nurse O'Brien."Mrs Welman said indulgently, "She's not a bad sort, really, but all nurses annoy me; they always will think that you'd like 'a nice cup of tea' at five in the morning!" She paused. "What's that? Is it the car?"Mary looked out of the window."Yes, it's the car. Miss Elinor and Mr Roderick have arrived."
Mrs Welman said to her niece, "I'm very glad, Elinor, about you and Roddy."Elinor smiled at her. "I thought you would be, Aunt Laura."The older woman said, after a moment's hesitation, "You do - care about him, Elinor?"Elinor's delicate brows lifted. "Of course."Laura Welman said quickly, "You must forgive me, dear. You know, you're very reserved. It's very difficult to know what you're thinking or feeling. When you were both much younger I thought you were perhaps beginning to care for Roddy - too much."Again Elinor's delicate brows were raised. "Too much?"The older woman nodded. "Yes. It's not wise to care too much. Sometimes a very young girl does do just that... I was glad when you went abroad to Germany to finish. Then, when you came back, you seemed quite indifferent to him - and, well, I was sorry for that, too! I'm a tiresome old woman, difficult to satisfy! But I've always fancied that you had, perhaps, rather an intense nature - that kind of temperament runs in our family. It isn't a very happy one for its possessors... But, as I say, when you came back from abroad so indifferent to Roddy, I was sorry about that, because I had always hoped you two would come together. And now you have, and so everything is all right! And you do really care for him?"Elinor said gravely, "I care for Roddy enough and not too much."